So here I am at work, after only having about 3 hours of sleep last night. Which is all fine and good, but I am struggling to stay alert. I was holding space for a friend last night who is going through the most bizarre break-up I have personally ever witnessed. After many hours of talking, tears and laughter, she left feeling better about herself and more clear about her situation and what she needs to do now. I am grateful to have the friends in my life that I do have because they have all been there for me on many occasions, supporting me and I am just happy to be able to repay the favour at times.

I am looking forward to visiting my man this weekend. This week has been the longest we've been apart since we started dating actually. It feels a bit weird, but also good. Change is in the air and we are heading towards the change together. We've decided to move in together when my lease is over at the end of August. As this is what I consider my first "grown up" & real relationship, I find myself questioning everything from time to time. When I realize my judges are up and in attack mode in my mind, I just stop, take a breath and ask myself the most important question: "Am I happy?" Answer so far has always been: "Yes". So forward on I go. The areas of my relationship where I question whether or not it will last - I end up laughing after because I realize there is nothing, NOTHING that is a guarantee in this life. I could end up getting hit by OC Transpo tomorrow or something else could happen that is out of my control (because change is the ONLY thing that is a guarantee - that and death) - so while I am here, in this moment, checking in with myself to see whether or not I am truly happy is the only barometer I plan on using. He is such an incredible man and I have learned so much about myself in only 6 months because of him and for that - I am truly grateful. :)

I am likely rambling on and on and not making much sense, but I have promised myself to write more and if this means rambling on for myself then so be it. I am positive this blog only has me reading it so it is nice to have a record of where my mind and heart were at at any given period of time.

I truly hope that if there is anyone reading this, that you have a wonderful weekend. Celebrate life - because it's the only time you're ever going to be here, in this space, as you are right now. Remembering we are all connected by the space inbetween...

Namaste